What do You do When Someone Hurts You So Much?


Over the years, there are a few people who have me hurt me beyond words. And I’m sure you can relate.

My stepmother did something to me that negatively impacted my life in ways I can’t even explain. For years, I cried day and night wondering why she could hurt someone’s child to that extent, moreover she has her own kids. I tried so hard to understand why God was so silent while I pleaded with Him to rescue me from the pain and negative consequences that her actions had created in my life, in vain.

Something else I held onto for years was the racism I experienced at a workplace, and from people I met in different organizations. Misfortune seemed to follow me around. Then, the discriminative tendencies from my in-laws, who treated me like I was less of a human being because I am black, almost rendered me insane. These things hurt me so much that I moved around with a heavy heart, sad, disoriented, and discouraged about life.

Some friends I had inspired so much when they were down and people I had supported when no one was there for them decided that betrayal was my best reward. And I am sure you can relate.  

I was so determined to heal my life because it hurt. One day, I met my spiritual teacher, who literally rescued me from the brewing pain that I was actively fertilizing in my heart. Without even knowing what I was going through, he told me something that snapped me out of the self-inflicted pain.

“Jacinta, there is no God in the sky coming to rescue you. God is in you. God is your life. God is your heartbeat, God is your breath. So do yourself a favor and release everything in your heart so that you can feel God.”

Despite having a doctorate in counseling, it hadn’t occurred to me that I was the one responsible for the pain I felt. All the people I had perceived as “hurters” were doing themselves. It was their business. They were expressing themselves. That is the programming they had. It had nothing to do with me. My business was to keep my heart clear from all perceptions and judgements about people and experiences. And that I have the power to live life on my terms. “Release your heart to God….to the universe, because “He” is the real deal and the only deal.” My teacher explained.

Are you hurting because someone acted in ways that hurt you? Release the pain and give your heart to whom it belongs to…God. Say, “Dear God, help me forgive myself, and everyone whom I have perceived as a hurter. Help me release my heart wholeheartedly to you.” Say this prayer repeatedly and watch how the universe works. When you stand down, the universe, God, reveals fully as your supreme support, not that “It” wasn’t your support before you recognized this truth. Because God is your support, with or without your recognition. But when you consciously acknowledge that God is all there is, peace becomes your perfume.

I am sharing this personal story, hoping it can inspire someone out there.

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When Doubt Attacks Faith: or Can it?


Faith is under-related, at least in my experience. It is easier said than done to have unwavering faith when your world seems as if it is tipped over and at the verge of crashing. Doubt creeps in like a thief in the night without warning and promotes all sorts of fears, to reason you out of generating the faith you need to transcend whatever challenge is at hand.

Often, I am faced with challenges that render me speechless. Times when I don’t know what to say or do. And much as I know that faith is available for me to dwell on, for some weird reason I allow the doubt to take over. And the moment this happens the ego steps in and delivers thoughts that weaken me even further. And the more I believe these thoughts, the more I feel defeated. But when I realize that everything is just happening in my mind, I snap my attention away from these energy sucking thoughts and then focus on my self. And by self, I mean the incorruptible part of me that can not be affected by anything known or unknown. This “place” is a “space-less space” of bliss, unwavering faith, actually beyond faith, with perfumes of unconditional love and unexplainable peace. Then, only then is doubt permanently dissolved. To reiterate, I refer to this place as a “space-less space” because it is beyond space. It is uncontainable, indefinable, imageless, and infinite.

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The Answer is Not The You, You Know


Every soul “CAN’ transcend anything and everything: and that “CAN” is God. ~Dr. Jacinta Mpalyenkana-Murray, PhD, MBA

We are all always looking for answers for the many questions that life throws at us. These questions are normally brewed from the obstacles, problems or challenges that we face. And our first instinct, at least mine, is to examine what skills or information I have to solve the problem at hand. However, more times than once, I find myself stuck, with no sense of direction. But I have come to realize that the one I know, which is Jacinta is not the answer to anything in my life.

Let me explain. My name is Jacinta; a name given to my identity. But in reality that is not my name. I am nameless. I am, is my original name. I am is your name also. I am, comes before our names: also meaning that it comes before our identities.

The name given to you at birth is the name of your identity, image or personhood. It represents what is seen about you. But what is not seen about you is the real deal. It is the soul, supported by the spirit of God. It is pure awareness. And that’s where all the answers come from. That is the foundation of our existence, support system and life. Your awareness, is you and you are also the witness of this awareness. You are infinite…just like God is. Because you are a part of God. Remember, God is infinite, and it would be extremely arrogant to believe that we are not part of this infinity. Note that infinity, incorporates everything that is finite.

Once we know who we truly are, extensions, children, or branches of the God-source, then we don’t have to worry our egoistical minds so much to find answers. We understand that the source of the solutions we seek is not from our identities. It is in the part of us that can not be seen by physical eyes, or understood by our minds. We learn to relax in who we are. We learn to let go, and let God.

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