What do You do When Someone Hurts You So Much?


Over the years, there are a few people who have me hurt me beyond words. And I’m sure you can relate.

My stepmother did something to me that negatively impacted my life in ways I can’t even explain. For years, I cried day and night wondering why she could hurt someone’s child to that extent, moreover she has her own kids. I tried so hard to understand why God was so silent while I pleaded with Him to rescue me from the pain and negative consequences that her actions had created in my life, in vain.

Something else I held onto for years was the racism I experienced at a workplace, and from people I met in different organizations. Misfortune seemed to follow me around. Then, the discriminative tendencies from my in-laws, who treated me like I was less of a human being because I am black, almost rendered me insane. These things hurt me so much that I moved around with a heavy heart, sad, disoriented, and discouraged about life.

Some friends I had inspired so much when they were down and people I had supported when no one was there for them decided that betrayal was my best reward. And I am sure you can relate.  

I was so determined to heal my life because it hurt. One day, I met my spiritual teacher, who literally rescued me from the brewing pain that I was actively fertilizing in my heart. Without even knowing what I was going through, he told me something that snapped me out of the self-inflicted pain.

“Jacinta, there is no God in the sky coming to rescue you. God is in you. God is your life. God is your heartbeat, God is your breath. So do yourself a favor and release everything in your heart so that you can feel God.”

Despite having a doctorate in counseling, it hadn’t occurred to me that I was the one responsible for the pain I felt. All the people I had perceived as “hurters” were doing themselves. It was their business. They were expressing themselves. That is the programming they had. It had nothing to do with me. My business was to keep my heart clear from all perceptions and judgements about people and experiences. And that I have the power to live life on my terms. “Release your heart to God….to the universe, because “He” is the real deal and the only deal.” My teacher explained.

Are you hurting because someone acted in ways that hurt you? Release the pain and give your heart to whom it belongs to…God. Say, “Dear God, help me forgive myself, and everyone whom I have perceived as a hurter. Help me release my heart wholeheartedly to you.” Say this prayer repeatedly and watch how the universe works. When you stand down, the universe, God, reveals fully as your supreme support, not that “It” wasn’t your support before you recognized this truth. Because God is your support, with or without your recognition. But when you consciously acknowledge that God is all there is, peace becomes your perfume.

I am sharing this personal story, hoping it can inspire someone out there.

Love and light

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Do You Really Love Yourself?


“Do you really love yourself?” asked my mother a few months ago. “Of course I do. How can you even ask such a question?” I responded. However, while alone I re-evaluated her question. Did I really truly love myself?

She asked me that question because I was complaining about a racism experience I had gone through. She urged me to focus on what was important…myself. But I didn’t really get it. I felt the need to blame the people who had racially harassed me. I felt entitled to continue pointing out the wrong they had done. And although what they had done wasn’t positive, I was doing more harm to myself. I was so focused on what was wrong, what had happened in the past and how bad these people had been to me. I put my attention on what hadn’t worked and continued to re-live it even when it had happened in the past. I hurt every day. I was literally carrying emotional baggage that was weighing me down. It struck me then that I wasn’t loving myself.

So, what negative experiences/stories are you carrying around? Are you 100% focused on yourself, or you are so busy focusing on your past ? What do you focus on most of the day? What do you think about? Are your thoughts energizing or weakening? When is the last time you did something good for yourself without feeling guilty? And I am not referring to doing something nice to your car or house, impressing your boss or loved ones.

I am referring to more intimate things such as, taking a nap, listening to your favorite music without doing anything else, stretching, doing yoga, eating right, drinking 8 glasses of water daily, meditating, going for a walk, going for a random ride, closing your eyes and doing nothing, forgiving yourself and others, having a long bath, taking time to scrub your body with a beautiful body scrub (whether you are man or woman), reading a self-help book, focusing on finding out who is the one behind those beautiful eyes of yours.

Do you really love yourself? What do you allow into your mind? Who do you allow into your space? What are your inner conversations about yourself? How do you feel about yourself?

Don’t wait for Valentine’s day to love yourself, express this love to others or long to attract love. When you love yourself unconditionally and consistently, you never have to search or expect others to love you. You will know once and for all that you are enough. And most importantly, with unconditional self-love you will project the same in your experiences.

Love and light

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Affirmations to Trust God’s Love to Heal Your Life


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When you are feeling down and defeated these affirmations will uplift you. Listen to them all day, every day until you believe what they promise. With your faith, and surrendering, you will witness positive experiences.

This is what I affirm all day during my low days. I hope these affirmations soothe your heart and fill your mind with faith and hope.

I’m sending you God’s love and light.

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